Cook what you got & change your attitude

     You know when you get trapped in these really bad attitudes and you shake it. Now for my female readers, this is not PMS, I am not due for that for another week or so. This is just a genuine bad attitude. My outlook is flawed. I'm stuggling at my job. I hate being in school still. I want more time to work out (or at least more time to think about working out). But alas. I can't. I have alot going on and its compounded by being trapped in a bad mood. I can't shake. I know there are some really good things happening right now for me. My relationships has never been better. My apartment is super cute now that its all put together. I have a consistent income. I have a job for Pete's sake. But I'm glum.

     You know whats nice when your glum. Food. It gives you time away from your pestering thoughts. So today, since I have yet to buy groceries, I needed to mix up everything I could find and turn it into something that would last me a few days. 'cause I can't buy groceries tomorrow cause I have class, again.

Ingredients

- Smart balance rotini pasta (2/3 of the box)
- chicken bouillon
- 2 cups frozen broccoli thawed
- 1 can of salt free diced tomatoes
- Garlic
- Olive Oil
- Balsamic Vinaigrette dressing
- Onion
- 1 chicken breast I found in the freezer
- 2 tbsp whipping cream (the stuff i forgot to put in the fall harvest soup)
- 1 spoonful of cream cheese (its all i had)
- Sprinkles of Parmesan

how to make it

1) cook pasta as directed and throw a bouillon cube in the water (why not)
2) Chicken, onion, garlic, olive oil, and dressing - till chicken is done
3) Tomatoes & cream - till mixture looks hot
4) Broccoli for a few more mins (why not)
5) Put in bowl, sprinkle with Parm and salt (cause I salt everything)

Voila

     The worst part about the job struggles is that this ins't me. The person at work, who is confused all the time, not hitting it off with my bosses, not rising to the top in a least 1 regard. This is not me. I am not this person. I am likeable. I am hard working. I am not a failure. I know perfection is not possible, and I will make mistakes. but this isn't me. In my head I know, that no one has to believe I can do it except me. Know one has believe that because i had 4 internships and almost 2 degrees that I am up to snuff. I have to prove it to them. And it kills me that i'm not proving it. It kills me that i'm not perfect. I have to do this the hard way, the over time, prove I can do it, painfully slow, build your patience hard way. And because I am a corporate drone now, I may never get to hear aloud the satisfaction of achieving my perfect goal.
    Really the job is great. Im challenged. Im busy all day. Its high profile, I'm meeting new people. The department is growing. The people (for the most part) can be really fun. I just don't know how to prove to them that I can do this besides just doing it.

     Just do it. I think Nike said it first. Its true. Just do it. Just BE better. Just TRY harder. It will come. Cause I CAN therefore I WILL. Quitting isn't in me. I guess that will have to be the change of attitude I can muster for now. I must get back to the daily grind.

P.S. In case this story was really bad and you want your money back. Check it out.

Yea its true. I actually found $10, in a puddle on the street, with no one around. I cleaned it off and hung it to dry on my sink.

So at least today I should be able to go to bed happy.
After all I found $10.

Thanks for reading
Ktbug

Homemade Cheeseburger & Fries Halloween Costume

Hello Blog!!

I made my first Halloween costume all by myself. 

With a little inspiration from Google. 

I made a cheeseburger shirt. 

First. I went to target. I got black leggings, tan tank top and a tan jacket (so that the coat doesn't spoil the outfit). So far $30 spent. But the jacket and leggings are reusable so only $9 sunk.

Second. I went to hobby lobby, super cool store, and bought various cheeseburger esq felt and fleece pieces. And lots of glue. Next time i'll buy more glue. you can never have enough glue. Actually next time ill have a sewing machine and ill make it better. So this cost about $20 (cause of all the glue and pins). 

This is basically a $30 costume. :-) 

 The adventure begins. So I cut out the burger part. Then the onion and the cheese. 

 I tried to get fancy with the lettuce. I got this stuff to make a the edges stiffer and glued it all wiggly. 

 Then we got tomatoes.

 I ended up cutting bits out of the lettuce to make it more real looking. I glue and pined it down.

Then Alex decided to be french fries. So the next day I made him a costume. Yellow strips, bottom part of a red shirt glued to a white shirt with a brown strip to make the edge look clean. 

 Then I got creative. I wanted a hat. I didn't want to be cold. So I thought sometimes burgers have a toothpick in them with an olive on top. I wanted to make an olive hat. So I made a hat out of the leftover fleece. Hand sewed it together. I studied a base ball hat to make the top. Then ta-da...HAT.

 Then I made this wad of stuff, so the red part on the olive would stick out. 

Then i tacked it onto the top of the hat. 

  TA DA!! Olive Hat. 

 Presenting the Costumes. Alex thought the back looked more fries like. This violates my rule of no picture of me on my blog, but I thought you needed to see the final product. Cheeseburger!

 Suggested variations: Burger and a milkshake...you could make a cute straw hat. Then the olive hat could be used on a martini costume. Then you could do no hat, and wear a flower necklace and shades and flops and call yourself a cheeseburger in paradise. 

Thanks for reading

Ktbug

Fall Harvest Soup

Hello Blog
   Today I made soup. Fall Harvest Soup. It has acorn squash, sweet potatoes, apples and to be honest i just now realized I forgot to add the pumpkin. Lol. So for the record the soup is good without the pumpkin...or the cream cause i forgot that too. It has the consistency of smashed potatoes. This soup came from a recipe from tasty kitchen.

 The above are outside and insides of an acorn squash. It has a pretty plain squashy flavor.










Then you roast them. Then you put them in a bowl.

Then you start making what smells like an apply pie. You mix up apples and cinnamon and brown sugar.




 Then you add the roasted veggies.

You let it simmer

Then you blend it up

Then viola soup. Its pretty good. I guess ill have to make it again with the cream and the pumpkin and see whats different.

Today I did kickboxing (Kenpo P90X) video. I still feel fat but oh well. Boomer stared at me like I was crazy while kicking and punching the air.

Well time for real work. I need to not be in school anymore.

Thanks for reading
Ktbug

Hello Blog

     Its been a while. Over a month. Im sorry. My life has been busy. But you don't need excuses. No one likes excuses. But we always have excuses. No one plans to miss a deadline at work. No one plans to get stuck in traffic. No one plans to study really hard for a test and then run out of time and fail it. These things are not planned, accidental, and no one cares.

    I have learned a lot of things in my few weeks as a "real person" in the working world. Never give excuses for anything, always answers and solutions. Always plan extra time, nothing goes as planned. A smile goes a long way but knowing what your talking about is better. Never contact anyone above your pay grade without making sure they are the right person to contact. Don't let your emotions get the best of you. Also, if you mess up at work and you get caught, you will have to bring in donuts.

     On the lighter side. Now that I finally have my apartment setup I have been able to start cooking again. I tried my hand at a chicken pot pie from a blog i love, For the Love of Cooking. 

     Chicken pot pie is so easy to make when you buy a precooked chicken. Rotisserie chickens are my new favorite thing. As you can see the recipe makes a lot and I had to throw out about 1/3rd. Which my dog promptly tore about my trash can while I was away to eat it. He ate a whole brick of $8 cheese the week before that. Trouble maker he is. I love him most of the time, but certainly not all of the time. He presents such a problem most of the time. Though last weekend I was able to bring him to a tailgate party. 

    I think he had a good time. :-) 

Finally the urge struck to knit after a few months hiatus. A guy a work just had a baby and she was premarture, and has to be in the hospital for 8 weeks. I remembered that I had a preemie pattern. Since I am not in the part of my life were i know little tiny babies and I knew this hate would take practically no time at all. So I leave you readers with the tiniest hat ever. 

Thanks for reading

Ktbug